Call me irresponsible, call me unreliable

I’ve been away for far too long but I swear I have valid reasons!

I have been feeling uninspired to write about my dating life because well, there has been no life in it to speak of. I have taken a month long break from dating thus far.


I know I was filled with *so* much enthusiasm about my ability to explore myself in relation to my sexuality and dating a wide variety of men but I just got caught up with one boy, Edward, and this was very silly of me for a variety of reasons.

I don’t want to rehash all the details of how he hurt me (but hurt me he did!) but I am actually quite relieved he hurt me so badly…..

It reminded me that I am in no place to have a serious committed relationship.

The only thing I’m still mourning is the great sex I was having with him towards the end. The best sex of my life! But, I know such a statement hardly has any weight after all, he was only the third person I’ve had sex with.

Just to recap:

The first – my ex-fiance I never wanted to have sex with

The second – my oldest guy friend I spent only one very drunken night with

The third – Edward – “the best sex of my life!”

So, I know such a proclaimation of Edward is not much of a compliment towards him. *wink*

But, after her hurt me, I took a break from dating. I was just too upset. When I would make out with a new boy all I could think of was how he wasn’t Edward and how much I wanted him to be there….

 But I have EXCELLENT news: I have realized I truly am over Edward. I feel so free without him. He made me feel like this empty shell of a person with nothing to offer but really I know it was his problem, not mine, now.

So…..things should prove interesting yet again!

“Call Me Irresponsible” Frank Sinatra


November 2, 2007. broken heart, Edward, Frank Sinatra, heartbreak, relationship, sex, single. 3 comments.