Casual sex – is it irrational?

I have been so worried up until this past weekend about having sex again with a new person. I mean, I’d only had sex with one person and he was my boyfriend. And he loved me.

I didn’t know how I would be able to ever have sex again or at least for a very long time. I feel, I have a lot of boundaries when it comes to being intimate with another.

I had already decided I do not want a boyfriend for a long time. I don’t think it’s healthy for me at this point. I’m really enjoying discovering who I am, independently. But I do not want to have sex with someone who finds me completely expendable and views me solely as a sex object. Perhaps, I’m just too vain or sensitive or have too much self-respect to allow myself to feel “used” – I think it’s a combination of the three.

I’ve been seeing this much older man for a couple months and we have done the “everything but” but I just haven’t been ready to go there with him. I just don’t feel it, I, would matter to him. Not really. And I feel that would hurt me.

So, I have been feeling so confused – what to do? who to do? Do I – A. Just wait til I have a boyfriend or at least boyfriend contender (but who knows how long this will be) or B. Have meaningless casual sex. Like a one night stand.

Well, I thought those were my only options I had until this past weekend.

The Faint – “Casual Sex”

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August 7, 2007. casual sex, dating, relationship, sex, single, The Faint. Leave a comment.